The last week has been a roller-coaster. I was in the Andaman islands where I went scuba diving. And from there I went to visit my maternal grandmother in Kolkata for 14 hours! And then back to Delhi for about 26 hours before I took a 17 hour long excruciating flight to Chicago. But to be with my parents, I’d do it all over again and it’s so hard to go a year before I get to see them each time.
Anyway, so all that travelling did not leave me any time to update my blog, so here’s day 15- 18. Also day 11 and 12 dealt with the best and worst advice I’d gotten or heard and honestly I couldn’t think of anything too impressive, so I’ll conveniently skip those.
Day 15- A song that makes you cry and why:
Everyone hurts by REM. Everytime I hear this song, a lot of bad memories flash back. Another recent song that almost always makes me cry is Say Something by Great Big World and Christina Aguilera because he left without saying much and I knew I’d give anything to have him back/
Day 16- Someone you trust
My best friends- Ellen, Jessie and Aditi. I can tell them whatever in the world without thinking they’ll judge me or even if they judge me, they’ll put my interest before their judgement.
Day 17- your idol and why you look up to them
A lot of people would say their mom/ dad or some reasonably famous person, but I think I am my own idol. I don’t believe I need to look upto someone to gain inspiration from them because everyone has a different path in life and have their advantages and disadvantages. I have my own share of problems and yes they maybe small as compared to those who go hungry to bed, but the expectations from me are also much higher than from them. So, I don’t have any idols.
Day 18- why you made your blog, why you still have it
I made my blog about 2 months back to be able to do something outside my usual routine tasks and challenges like these make me think about so many things. Like the previous question, I had never thought about an idol or so many other things. It’s fun and hopefully I’ll be able to do almost all the posts through this year!
In an era where dystopian books have taken over literature and the silver screen, you may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one…
I believe that someday, there will be no wars in the name of religion, girls would be able to get education and equal pay without protesting, no one will die of hunger, women can walk freely without the fear of being raped, and we would all be able to do what we love without the rat race of getting money and having a secured job for a secured future.
Being yourself is so important to be happy in life. I am a loud, excessively outspoken person and often it puts me in a lot of trouble. But whenever I have tried being quieter, less confrontational, etc., I have been very unhappy. I’d rather express why I am troubled and try to solve it (even if I fail) than just sit around and hope that the problem solves itself, something that seldom happens. So yea, being myself means speaking my mind out- LOUD and CLEAR
1. World Hunger
2. People condescending on other people who work below them and thus have no power over them.
3. Illness (myself or others)
4. Being cold
5. Chelsea losing a game
If you google “attachment” the first definition that comes up is – “Attachment is a deep and enduring emotional bond that connects one person to another across time and space (Ainsworth, 1973; Bowlby, 1969). Attachment does not have to be reciprocal. One person may have an attachment with an individual which is not shared.” What is important in that statement is the second half- it does not have to be reciprocated. I will be the first to agree that i get attached too fast, to everyone. Not only a lover or boyfriend, but also friends, people I work with, etc. Over time, I have learned to not let everyone too close, but it still tends to be all or nothing for me. And that makes everything pretty upsetting. So one thing I’d like to change about myself is that I should be able to get close to most people without getting too attached.
The above image explains a lot of my relationships- including one in which I was so unhappy that for once I was drinking entire bottles of wine by myself on most weeknights to not think about him, but still crying because I thought the relationship was coming to an end. I was reading up on attachment styles, and clearly I am the anxious type, without even having to take the quiz that follows in the above link. This is also a book, which I remember listening to on audiobook through hoopla and gave up because I was rather busy at the time. But also, while writing this post, I found some nice resources to help me cope with letting go of attachment including here and here. Yes these resources tell us the same things which we subconsciously know, but at least for people like me, it helps immensely to be reminded of them on a regular basis. I think I’m not alone in feeling this way and a lot of people could feel better about life if we just learn to let go. What are some things y’all would like to change about yourselves?
Hunger, especially childhood hunger is one of the world’s most solvable huge issues. In a world, where most of us are over eating and often throwing away food, there’s millions of people who go hungry for days, often dying of starvation. The picture I put here was selected after looking through various pictures which almost drove me to tears. The following are places, where you can donate food with money or for free.
I’d feel less overworked and underpaid. My dream is basically doing scientific research- the kind that I do currently. So in a way I am living my dream. But ideally I’d have my Ph.D. and a great job, so I’d feel less underpaid. A nice husband in the mix would sweeten the deal. So when I achieve my dream, I’d be doing the same work I am now, except I’d get paid more 🙂
That’s a very philosophical question. In general, I am not sure if everyone has a purpose in the grand scheme of things. Of course, as a basic scientist I do research which will probably contribute to making something easier in the long run of things, but I’m not sure the world would stop turning if I didn’t do it. When I was younger I might’ve answered differently, but age, experience and a certain man in my life have made me rather skeptical about most things in life. But in general, if there was one reason for me to be here (on this planet), I would hope it is to make some people happy that I exist. There are certainly some people who always make me smile and I guess I hope there’s at least a couple of people who feel the same way about me.
Switching gears completely, I am an avid reader and every year I plan to read a certain number of books and take a goodreads challenge and often read much more. But this year in addition to that challenge of 20 books, I have decided on another reading challenge. This one is from popsugar. I will try to check off as many as I can on this list too and keep updating it as I go!